I'm scared. I'm scared that it hurts when I stand for too long. That it hurts when I put on my socks or tie my shoes without sitting. I'm terrified that one day I'm just gonna wake up and find out that the surgery happend and now i have to heal it all. I'm terrified to cry. Because whenever I feel like crying, I also feel like every one is gonna laugh. And then when I finish crying, I feel really stupid. I know that after my family reads this they're going to a be like " oh Avery you have a right to be sad. Go ahead and cry, no one will laugh". And I know that that's probably true but it doesn't make it any less scary. It just makes me think that there's all the more reason to be scared. Anyways, that's all.